Dear God,

I don't know where else to go with all this pain, so today, I'm writing this letter to You. 😭🤍

Dear God, You know everything that has happened. You know how much I wanted things to work out, how hard I tried, how many times I reached out for help, and how desperately I waited for someone to listen to me.

I joined Del. as a fresher year ago. I entered this professional world with so many dreams, hopes, and expectations. I wanted to learn, grow, prove myself, and build a good future through my own hard work. I knew I was a fresher and that I had a lot to learn, but I was always willing to learn and improve.

I never expected everything to be easy. I never expected everyone to appreciate me all the time. All I wanted was a fair opportunity, some guidance, and the chance to understand where I was going wrong if there was something I needed to improve.

But, God, when the time came, nobody clearly explained anything to me.

When my colleagues started receiving their continuation confirmations, I was left waiting without knowing what was happening to my future. I reached out to my Resource Manager, my manager, my coach, the People Leader, and the relevant teams. I kept asking for clarity. I kept hoping that someone would explain the situation to me.

But every time I reached out, I was left without a clear answer.

And then, at the end, a decision was made that affected my career, without giving me the clarity I had been asking for.

God, what hurt me the most was not just the decision itself. It was the feeling that nobody wanted to listen to my side. Nobody sat down with me and clearly explained the concerns, if there were any. Nobody gave me the opportunity to understand what had happened or what I could have done differently.

If I had been told that I needed to improve in certain areas, I would have tried my best to improve. I am still learning. I am still growing. I am still that fresher who wants to become better at everything she does.

I could have accepted constructive feedback. I could have accepted a difficult conversation. I could even have accepted a decision I didn't like. But why did I have to go through all this uncertainty without a proper explanation?

I tried reaching out to everyone I thought could help me. I even approached senior leadership, hoping that someone would look at my situation fairly. I explained my concerns, hoping that at least one person would understand what I was trying to say.

But in the end, nothing changed.

And now, God, I am sitting here with so many unanswered questions, trying to understand why this happened to me.

I don't know whether the decision was intentional. I don't know what was discussed behind closed doors. I don't know what people thought about me or why my concerns were not given the consideration I hoped for. I only know how this entire situation made me feel: unheard, helpless, disappointed, and afraid for my future.

God, I worked hard to reach this point. I was trying to build my career, step by step. I wanted to complete my first year with happiness and pride. I wanted to look back and feel that all my efforts had taken me somewhere.

Instead, I am questioning myself, my future, and what comes next.

And the hardest part is that I cannot even explain this pain to everyone. People may see it as just a job or just a business decision. But for me, it was my first professional journey, my learning, my efforts, my hopes, and a part of the future I was trying to build.

Dear God, I am not asking You to punish anyone. I am not asking for anyone to suffer because I am suffering. I don't want bitterness to settle in my heart. I just want the truth to come to light, and I want to believe that I deserved to be heard, too.

If I made mistakes, please help me learn from them. If there were things I could have done better, help me recognise them and become stronger. And if I was treated unfairly, please give me the strength to accept what I cannot change without losing faith in myself.

Please don't let this experience make me feel that I am not good enough. Please don't let the silence of people make me question the value of my efforts. And please don't let one painful chapter convince me that my future will always be uncertain.

You know how much I wanted to make something of myself. You know how hard I tried to find answers. You know the tears I have cried over things I cannot explain to anyone.

Today, I am tired, God. I am tired of asking people to listen. I am tired of explaining my side. I am tired of waiting for an answer that may never come.

So, for now, I am leaving these unanswered questions with You.

Please give me the courage to face whatever comes next. Please open a door for me where I can learn, work with dignity, and grow without constantly feeling that my future is slipping out of my hands.

And one day, when I look back at this moment, please let me understand that my story did not end here.

I don't know why this happened, God. I don't know what tomorrow holds. But please, don't let me lose hope in myself just because some people did not give me the clarity or consideration I was asking for.

I wanted someone to hear me. I tried everything I knew to make that happen.

Now, I just want some peace.

Please take care of the part of me that is hurting tonight. Please give me the strength to wake up tomorrow and keep going, even when I don't have all the answers.

I leave my pain, my questions, my efforts, and my future in You

r hands.

With a tired heart, but still a little hope,

A 🤍🙏

27 oct 2026

Life